2007- A Year of Victory!

For those who are still visiting my blog every now and then, and have chanced upon this new entry, i salute you!!! =) That's cos' i haven't been blogging for a long time now, even though i did say that i wanted to revive this blog for the longest time.

Well, as with all New Years, we begin with resolutions. For my G12 family, we were asked to fill up a matrix with different applications for our lives, with regards to Going Deep in Christ, Looking Far in Vision, and Asking Big in Faith.

I'd juz share about what i wrote for the first. My application of Going Deep in Christ was to have more regular blogging... and not juz blogging about life in general, but blogging my devotional time, once a week at least.

Confession- was supposed to have started last week, but my lazy bones are well, still lazy! =)

Til the Cluster Presence Meeting we had at TC Chapel last nite....

A longing for His Presence

Went for the Cluster Presence Mtg without any expectations. Truth be told, i was feeling exhausted after a day at school, and all i wanted to do was to hit the sack. Still, i was there.... and as the worship began, i felt different.... i began to feel recharged again... and then i felt it... the presence of God...

I reallie felt like crying then... it's been so long since i felt His Presence so strongly... but i held back my tears as worship continued..
Towards the end of the mtg, Ps Hee Guan told the other pastors to pray for us. As i stood there awaiting my turn, i wondered who the pastor praying for me would be.... then Ps Hee Guan came over...

"The Lord's favour is upon you... His Heart is with you.... " these were the words i remembered him saying... and as i lay on the ground... the tears came..... and i let them....
images flashed across my mind, different pictures of me, as a child, and then progressing on to pri sch, sec sch, JC and uni.... all the times i laughed and cried... esp. the times i cried..... He showed me that He was there.... at every stage of my life.... and then finally, a picture of a man holding a baby in his arms.... He was cradling the baby so tenderly, and He smiled at her.... smiled at me...
"Do you remember?" He asked......

Yes, Lord.... i remember....

I just wasn't aware of His Presence then..... how could i have ever lived a life without knowing Him? Without knowing His Love.... His tender and everlasting Love....

I was so touched, the tears flowed freely, and i couldn't stop them....

It's been so long, Lord..... Despite how i have grieved ad disappointed You in the past, You still love me so... why??

I just do, my child...

God is so good.... and He loves me so.... unconditionally.... AGAPE.... i can ponder over this for a lifetime, but i know that i'll neva be able to fully comprehend the extent of His great love.