walking on

Back from Bangkok

Got back last Friday... it was quite a fruitful trip, Ady and i each lugging at least 2 bags. Spent more than i expected, but i must say that they were all reallie good buys. The thought of setting up shop in S'pore, and getting the stock from Bangkok surfaced a couple of times... now we know how much we're being over-charged for the clothes sold here...

Heading back to Bangkok after only a year brought back memories, especially so when we realised we were back at the same hotel.... that was a year back.... juz before things got started between us....

i must admit that the trip was more a diversion for me... a distraction away from thoughts of the past.... a breather from the heaviness in my soul.... escapism it may be, but if i could, i'd choose to keep escaping....

It doesn't help that bros keep playing his fave song on the PC.... that mom asks abt him every now and then.....

Almost 5 mths now.... seems like a long time, but the road to recovery seems endless. It seems that the more i try to forget, the more it seems impossible.... perhaps i should juz change my focus.... not to forget, but to focus on God instead.

The Big Move

We're heading to the Expo this week... a sense of excitement n anticipation has filled the services in the last couple of weeks. Worship has neva been better.....

This move marks a whole new chapter in my spiritual walk... it's been almost 4 year now..... mistakes have been made, painful lessons learnt.... tears of joy, sorrow have been shed..... frens who dunno me well think that i've been consistent in my walk.... close frens know better..... this walk had not been a smooth one..... i'd fallen a couple of times.... but each time, God was always there to help me up....

I pray that as i start on a clean slate, i'll be able to walk on stronger.... armed with the lessons learnt.... the memories i have will always stay wif me.... and for that, i am grateful. After all, we'd juz be robots if we didn't have memories to keep.... but i won't let the memories destroy me.... time will heal.... it always does.....